SID: Now Jennifer coined a new word. You’ve heard of alcoholism. She didn’t coin that. Her word is “doubtaholism”. What are the symptoms of doubtaholism?
JENNIFER: That’s right. Doubtaholism, it’s a spiritual disease, is how I characterize it. And some of the symptoms include confusion. If you’re confused it means you’ve been reasoning in your mind a little bit too much. God gave us reasoning. He expects us to use our natural intellect. But when we go beyond reasoning into confusion we just don’t know what to do any more. We’re wavering between two opinions. We’re confused. We become double-minded. And the Bible says that a double-minded man is unstable in all his ways, and he shouldn’t think he’s going to receive anything from God. So if you’re not receiving from God then it’s possible that you’ve got doubt in your heart. And doubt is so subtle. It’s sneaky. And again, talking about mental ascent, we sit in church. We hear great messages every week. We say amen. You know, we give a nod, we give a clap, we give a shout. We go home. We read our Bibles. And what we have a tendency to do, Sid, is we read what we believe rather than believing what we read.
SID: Oh. That is profound. Would you say that again.
JENNIFER: We read what we believe rather than believing what we read. And what I mean by that is we’ve been taught, many of us, we’ve sat under great Bible teachers for decades or we’ve been taught by our families, or we’ve just been taught by life experiences. So we have these filters, these glasses, and we’re looking at the world, we’re looking at the Word through our worldview. And that isn’t always what the truth of the matter is. We have to begin to look at God’s Word and take it for face value, take it literally. If God said, that’s exactly what He means.
SID: Okay. But there’s an obstacle as we talked about, this doubt, unbelief. What did God show you? How did you get rid of that?
JENNIFER: I was studying Kenneth Hagin’s material and just devouring that material some years ago. And I remember studying and studying, and studying, but my faith didn’t seem to be working, and I was really frustrated. I’m like, how can I be studying—
SID: You know what I’m reminded of, because I read his material, too, and Jennifer quotes something. She says, “God is not moved by your need. God is only moved by your faith.” And we say, oh God, how come you’re healing everyone else. I need you to heal me. God, where are you? None of you can relate to that. Right? You can. Explain that statement.
JENNIFER: Well God already knows what we need before we ask Him. What God is really after, again, He’s after our heart. He wants a relationship with us. He wants us to interact with Him at a heart level, and when we do that we cultivate that intimacy with God, our heart connecting with His heart, there’s no more room for doubt. Doubt has to go. There’s no more room for fear. Fear has to go. But it’s about cultivating that intimate relationship with God.
SID: The revelation that God gave you as to how you, because if she can do it, you can do it, and if she can do it, you can do it better. So tell me what God showed you that you had to do to get rid of your doubt and unbelief.
JENNIFER: There were two things, really. It’s the combination of these two things that’s so powerful. It taps into the supernatural at every level. It’s meditating on the Word of God and praying in the Spirit like Paul taught.
SID: Let’s start with this meditating on the Word of God. That’s a word that a lot of people don’t understand. What does it mean to you and what did you do?
JENNIFER: Meditating on the Word of God is to chew on it, to roll it over and over in your mouth, in your mind, to confess it, to say it, to say it over and over. And what I like to do is I like to take a certain scripture, whatever scripture it is that I’m trying to get down in my spirit at the time. Because I like to build my faith before I release my prayer. So what I’ll do is if I need provision I will take a scripture, “My God shall supply all of my needs according to His riches and glory,” and I will say each word. I will emphasize as I go. I will say, “MY God shall supply.” It makes it personal, talking about MY God. And I say, “My GOD shall supply.” That makes it about Him. So it’s about me, it’s about Him. We’re in this together. My God SHALL. And that’s a promise. That’s the strongest word in the English language, the word “shall”. And I go on down the line in that way.
SID: You know, meditating is so important. Doctors have proven that if you say a lie long enough, you will believe that it’s true. What if you say the strongest thing in this world, the Word of God long enough, a light bulb coming on. And people don’t, as Jennifer said, chew on the Word of God. They just swallow it whole. Now you talked about a second thing God showed you.
JENNIFER: Praying in the Spirit. Paul teaches about praying in the Spirit in several places in the Bible, but so does Jude. He says, “Building yourself up in your most holy faith, praying in the Spirit.” And so when you pray in the Spirit, you’re strengthening your spirit. You’re strengthening your heart. And it becomes easier to believe with all your heart, because the more full your heart gets of the Word, the more full you get of the Spirit, fear has to go. Doubt has to go.
SID: Now you’ve come up with something I have never seen, the revelation she has on doubtaholism. You’ve come up with 12 separate steps that if someone will do this, they will supernaturally remove doubtaholism. And if you can do that, guess what? You will believe with all your heart and what you say will come to pass. Tell me one of these principles.
JENNIFER: Well like anything else, the first step is to admit that you have a problem
SID: Now why wouldn’t someone admit that they have a problem?
SID: A-ha! A-ha. The devil made you do it. No!
JENNIFER: It’s pride. We don’t, or just that we don’t know, we don’t recognize, we don’t discern that voice of doubt. It’s so subtle. You know, you think it’s you, but it’s not you. It’s the enemy trying to rob your faith.
SID: You just said an interesting word. Doubt, the voice of doubt is subtle. Explain that a little to me.
JENNIFER: It’s almost as if it’s your thought. You know, when Eve was in the garden with Adam, the serpent came and basically caused her to doubt God’s Word just by asking a question. Did God really say that? And that’s what the devil does with us now. The enemy, he will pose a question, well did God really mean that? Did God really mean that healing is for today? And cause you to doubt that your healing will not come to pass because Jesus isn’t healing any more, when in fact he is. The Word says he is.
SID: Now you’ve been healed of high blood pressure. You’ve been healed, you used to go on missions trips and every time you’d have ankle problems. Do you have them today?
JENNIFER: I have nothing of that. I’m walking.
SID: How’s your blood pressure?
JENNIFER: My blood pressure is perfectly normal.
SID: Okay. Would you pray that we would be able to discern the subtle voice of doubt and unbelief right now.
JENNIFER: Yes. Yes. Father, I thank you for everyone watching and everyone within the sound of my voice. I thank you, Lord, that you give us discernment, a sharper edge, God, to understand and know that voice of doubt, to recognize it at its onset, that we might not meditate on the word of doubt, the word of the enemy, that we might meditate on the Word of God. I just release right now by the Spirit of God an anointing to discern, an anointing to hear. I unclog the ears of those who have been listening to doubt. I bind it and I command it to go in Jesus’ name. Amen.
SID: Yeah. I’m not moved by feelings. But I can tell you, I felt as if light bulbs were going on, and people are beginning to recognize. I’ve got some advice for you. Forget what lies behind. Forget the failures and the mistakes. Do what you were just instructed to do. Number one, meditate on God’s Word. Number two, pray in supernatural languages. You know, Jennifer, I’ve been praying an hour a day and it is, I’m going to tell you, I’ve walked up, in the last couple of months, I’ve walked up to people and this never really happened before. People, the presence of God is pouring out of me and people are falling over. One waitress said, what happened to me and I was able to explain that to her. Well it’s wonderful that I’m doing this. It’s wonderful that Jennifer is doing this. But you are called. You are chosen. You have a purpose. You have a destiny to dust yourself off, stand up and get back into the play.